Letters to June

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Dear June,

First off, I love you June Carter and I'm dedicating my diary to you. Well, to you and Johnny.

June, I'm pregnant. I know it. I said it to George but I don't think he believed me. But you can see the bump, plain as day. I'm so scrawny, you can see easy enough. I guess it's ok, I'll get some books from the doctor. I don't want to tell anyone though, my mom will kill me, and I don't know what to do about George, I lied and told him I was already 16.

God please forgive me.

March 3 1979

Dear June,

I went into town to the doctor's office and told him I was pregnant and wanted some pamphlets and books to read. He asked if I wanted a test, but I said 'no', because I already know.

George isn't very happy, so afterwards we went to the health food store because my friend Leanne who works there, she has a special tea you can drink and it will make you lose the baby. We bought some and he's going to make it for me to drink. I don't think I want to drink it.

It was his 25th Birthday today and I bought him 25 bubble gums, the pink ones with the little comic inside. I don't think he thought it was very funny.

March 15 1979

Dear June,

I have been pouring the tea into the plant and sometimes down the sink. After the first cup I didn't want to have a miscarriage, it didn't feel like the right thing to do. The tea tasted awful and I told George that I don't think it's working.

We mostly stay in bed and watch TV, sometimes people come over or we make sticky popcorn with brown sugar syrup. I'm not very hungry, I only want to eat bananas anyway.

March 18 1979

Dear June,

It got really cold here and our pipes froze. I guess there's nothing we can do, but now I have to walk all the way down the hill and into town to the gas station to pee. It's far, and I have to pee a lot now. I don't know how long we'll stay in this town, George says he needs to find a job because his pogey is running out. Some friends of ours moved to a place called Port Alberni on Vancouver Island and I said I was glad to go because that was my 'hometown'. George yelled 'no it isn't!' and it's true, I was wrong, I just meant that it's closer to where I use to live, but it was mean the way he said it.

George knows James, from when they use to live together in the apartment above a store down on Main Street. When I first met them, it was in Vernon. They were throwing popcorn at me and Jules in the movie theatre, they were two rows behind. We had some Southern Comfort in a wineskin and asked if they wanted some. After the movie we went back to that apartment, up the old creaky back wooden stairs and I slept with James and my friend slept with George. Afterwards George played guitar he was really good and I said I played too. I'm just learning, but I can already play 3 chords. He's going to teach me how to play Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd.

I guess I knew right then that I loved him.

North Vancouver author and artist Jenn Ashton is no stranger to creativity. Coming from

an artistic family she has lived her life bringing creative flair to all her projects large and

small. From the non-profit Boardroom and the challenges of being a young parent, to

producing music and enjoying scholarly pursuits, Jenn Ashton is known for her originality,

resourcefulness and vision.