In my one year anniversary blog post celebrating a full year of writing for the Yummy Mummy Club I wrote this....
"When I left my much loved career in radio to become a SAHM I felt like a huge part of me was missing. My fear was that I would never be able to fill that void with something that fulfilled me as much as the world of radio broadcasting did. It really was my passion. Truth be told I actually got panic attacks about it. It was a major low point for me. Emotionally I was a wreck. It was so set in my mind I was going back to work, that when circumstances changed, and it turned out that I was going to stay home full-time, I never had the time to mentally and emotionally digest that huge lifestyle change."
Looking back and reading that blog seems like a lifetime ago.
At that time, I really thought that the opportunity to get back into radio was never going to materialize. The thing with the world of radio is, once you're out of it for too long, it's really hard to get back into it.
But over the years I've truly come to believe that all things happen for a reason and there is no such thing as coincidence....when you least expect it and aren't actively looking for something, that's when opportunities present themselves.
Like Oprah's mantra...if it's meant to be, then it's meant to be.
Fast forward from that blog entry to Thursday, June 2, 2011 and I'm sitting in the offices of the Bell Media radio stations here in Ottawa signing up to do weekends (9AM-2PM) on their station, Majic 100 - Today's Soft Rock.
The opportunity to get back on the air all came about pretty quickly and it took me no time to say "Yes! For sure! Where do I sign?"
Then after all the paperwork was signed that's when all the insecurities came to surface.
My first shift was Saturday, June 4. And leading up to that day I was a disaster.
I was nauseous and a nervous wreck. I was ulcer bound. Like ridiculous nervous.
I mean, five and a half years of baby, toddler and pre-school conversations had me second guessing if I could even get through a five hour shift with finding stuff to talk about, let alone in adult speak and in coherent sentences.
But like most things in life, when it comes to things that you truly love, when you go back to what truly is your passion, it's like riding a bike. It eventually all comes back to you. And the butterflies in your stomach all but disappear and you feel like you've returned home to where you feel most comfortable and really yourself. And for me that's in a studio with headphones and a microphone.
And the best part is, that Monday to Friday I'm still at home with the kids full-time playing the other role that I truly love, that of 'Mommy'.
I've come full circle - a door of opportunity opened when I thought it had been closed for good. And for that I'll be eternally grateful.
I'm ridiculously excited for what's to come and to share all my new adventures with my kids...even though they think it's 'really weird' to hear Mommy on the radio.
So I guess it's time to change my bio here on the Yummy Mummy Club now isn't it?