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Upon the birth of her new baby - a Facebook friend wrote her status as: "I knew there would be a lot of crying in the house with a new baby...I just didn't realize the tears would be my own". I, Activity Mummy, gave birth to our son 7 days ago, and the tears have been flowing ever since - however I wouldn't call them joyful. Is this the baby blues I've read about?...
I cry in the shower. For no reason. A big wave of blue comes over me in an instant and I cry. I have three happy, healthy, beautiful children. A great husband. A nice life. And I'm crying in the shower. WTH?!?
And I'm snapping at the kids. I don't usually snap at them. I'm not a snapper. But when that wave of blue hits I can't help myself. (and it secretly, deep down, feels good...am I horrible?)
And during the blue waves, I feel utterly alone in the world. Even though I'm surrounded with all these humans whom I grew from scratch. Despite having my husband home during these 1st days with our son. This had better be the baby blues because otherwise I am one Mommy who tossed her priorities with the plancenta.
Now, I don't feel this way all the time - most of the time I am happy (and tired...and slightly mentally fuzzy from the tiredness...the little man nurses every 2 hours). And I realize that there are a whole lotta hormones wreaking havoc right now.
But as Shrek says "Better out than in" thus I'm sharing my baby blues. With you. With my family. Because I realize I'm not alone - it's just that silly blue wave. New mother's get the baby blues...even new-experienced-mothers like me. Right?...
So far, today, I'm keeping myself busy...like writing this post, starting the big kids with activities and cuddling that 7 day old boy-child...and so far no waves of blue.
So I'm putting this out there...have any of you experienced the baby blues? What did you do to keep the blue waves away?