I don’t know how to begin this so you’ll just have to bear with me while I write through my blocks.  And I’ll warn you now, this will be long.  Very long.  I’ll probably be breaking it up into parts, so grab a coffee or a wine - whatever you want to drink for whatever time of day it is you’re reading this - and get comfy.  Also, you should know I’ve had therapy for all I’m about to write about and I’m okay with doing this.  It took a long time to get to this place, but I’m here. 

And in case I don’t get to it tonight, one of the biggest heroes in this story is my husband.